February 8th: A Day I'll Never Forget

February 8th, 2010. A day of heartbreak, of sadness and sorrow, of tears and pain, of the world seeming to come to an end, of never knowing if I could trust or "love" again. What do you do when you like a guy, and then all of a sudden, you realize that the one that you like is far from who you not only want but need? Well, this happened to me.

I had fallen for a guy. I think the main reason for this is that I had been separated from a very dear friend and "brother" by unfortunate circumstances (I blame wrestling) and during that mourning time, he was very kind to me. That is one thing that I easily fall prey to is kindness shown to me when I am sad. Over the next month or so, we found out that he liked me and I liked him, but we did keep it at that for the most part. He would send me song lyrics. This might not seem very important, but for me, song lyrics really mean a lot to me (me being the music lover that I am). Everything seemed to be going great......and then, near the end of January, everything suddenly exploded.

Apparently, I couldn't think for myself. This is a lot of things put into one phrase. I was so stressed out over the humongous fight that I was sick for over a week. Whenever I would try to eat something, it...well, you probably get the idea. The only highlight of that eight day period was going to a scholarship weekend at Bryan College (and meeting my big brother Tim in the process). On February the 8th, everything ended. I cut all ties (other than the obvious having to see him at school).

February 8th, 2010. A day of heartbreak, of sadness and sorrow, of tears and pain, of the world seeming to come to an end, of never knowing if I could trust or "love" again. What do you do when you like a guy, and then all of a sudden, you realize that the one that you like is far from who you not only want but need?

I found out what to do. When your world seems to fall apart, there is only one thing that you really can do. When you've kept crawling and crawling and just can't move anymore,you have to lean on Christ, let Him carry you instead.

And that's what I did.

Now, a year later, I look back on those events, and I have only one thing to say. My dear, wherever you are, I can't wait to meet you. Until then, I will try, with Christ's help, to not fall prey to this again. I will be waiting for you, my love.

~Katherine Grace~