Beloved

So, I've been thinking a lot lately on the subject of love and relationships. As I'm waiting for the one man that God has for me, it can be hard having to wait. I sometimes get to the point where I just want to meet him already, know who he is, and just end the waiting. There have been many times where I would just wish that I knew something about him so I could have something to look for in the guys that I meet. I've even wished that I knew his name so I would know automatically when I met him. This waiting process is so hard, but I've had to step back and remember something. I'm only 19. I've just started college. I have so many more things to be focusing on than on trying to start a relationship and trying to look for him. Right now, what I really need to focus on is school, friendships, and above those, Jesus. I believe that when the time is right, I won't have to look for him. I believe that God will bring him to me. My "Prince" will come riding in when I need him the most, and he will have found his "Princess". In the stories, the princess never goes out trying to find or rescue a prince, and I believe that it should be that way sometimes in real life. I should guard my heart, and when the time comes for me to give my heart to someone, I won't have to worry about that person breaking it, because he will be the right one. Giving it to someone that isn't meant to have it ends in that person breaking your heart. I know this, and it isn't fun trying to put your heart back together. I don't think that it is completely healed even now, but God is working on it and I know that the right guy will come along and help mend it. However, until that day comes, the only true love that I know is Jesus, and until my Prince arrives, Jesus is more than enough for me. I will always have His love, no matter what, and that love is enough to fulfill me until He finds me ready to share my heart with someone else.

There is a song that I've come to know recently that really helped me see this. It is called "Beloved". It is by Tenth Avenue North, and I think the lyrics are worth putting in this blog, because the lyrics are so true.

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need

Give me your life
The lust and the lies
And the past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved lover
I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need

I'm the giver of life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Come running home to me

You're my beloved lover
I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me

You've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers that won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips and you'll taste new life

You're my beloved lover
I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It's a mystery

After hearing these lyrics, I came to the realizations that I have stated. I hope that whoever reads this, that what I have written and these lyrics can help you in some way or another. And, my Prince, if you are reading this, I am patiently waiting for the day that you come for me. Until then, my heart belongs to no other than my Heavenly Father, the King of Kings. I await your arrival, my love.

-Katherine Grace

"Who Are You?"

When I was in high school, I would walk down the hallways, passing many people everyday. I saw many faces pass me by, and some days I just wondered, "Are you any of these? Do you go to high school with me, pass me by in the hallways everyday, and I don't even realize that you are the one for me?" I thought once that I found you, but I was sadly mistaken. And I had to stop and wonder, "Where are you right now? Are you younger than me, sitting in a classroom with your peers? Are you my age, possibly sitting in the same class with me right now? Or are you older than me, and maybe even out of high school already?" And I look around me, and I ask myself, "Who are you?"

When I go out into town, and go to different places, whether it be a store or a fast food restaurant, I look at my surroundings. I see the young man walking up the aisle, looking for bread, or I see the guy in front of me ordering his food to go. I think to myself, "Are you here? At this moment, are we in the same building and don't even know it? Could you possibly be in the same grocery line as me in Walmart and not even realize that the young woman two people behind you is me, your future wife? Could I possibly be ordering the same meal that you did not even five minutes ago in Wendy's?" I ponder on this, and I have to ask myself, "Who are you?"

As I go around my college campus, I see many faces everyday. I hang out with many people within the course of a day. And sometimes, as my days continue, I wonder, "Are you even on this campus? Or have you already graduated college? Are you still a year or two away from entering a big part of your life? Have I only seen your face, but haven't met you yet? Are you one of them? Are you one of my friends that I hang out with constantly? Do we perhaps sit by each other in class and not even consider that we are meant to be? Are you........?"

And I ask myself, "My dear.......who are you?"